Wow. God is incredible. Really. Tonight I was hit hard by some recurring emotions. I mean I was at the bottom of the bottom. I was struggling with a long term situation/decision in my life that I just wasn't liking at all. The decision wouldn't be considered a bad one by anyone's standards- I just didn't know if it was worth it. I felt so alone. And it seemed like I would feel that way for the rest of my life. It felt to me that all that I had worked for and believed in was worthless. That it was going to get me nowhere. I thought that I was a failure. I was consumed with the fact that what I had in mind for myself wasn't happening. I didn't think anything would ever pay off. Then God showed up. (as He sometimes does)
No more than twenty minutes after the onset of those feelings, someone called me. This wasn't someone I talk to very frequently so I wondered what the call was for. After the awkward "Hey, how are you? How is college going?" small talk they told me why it was that they called. They wanted to tell me how much that decision (that I wasn't too happy about making) meant to them. How I had been living encouraged them. I mean they nailed the exact topic that I was dealing with. They told me that they were proud of who I am. Then explained that the unexpected call was in response to what they felt God was telling them to do. They said that God asked them to call and tell me all of that.
Now some would call that bologna, others coincidence. But I call it God reaching down and letting His child know that it's going to be ok. That He will always be there when I need Him. I really cannot describe what that kind of love means to me. It brings tears to my eyes. And for those who know me well, know that there isn't much that does that. (And for those who don't know me well-- I didn't cry in The Notebook.. I know.. I have no heart.)
JK
7 comments:
i like your blog :)
That, my friend, was solid.
=)
Jade, I found you via Devon's blog and am glad I stumbled upon you. You should post more often; I read every one of your posts and not only like your writing but you seem just the kind of girl I pray that my daughter turns into. You are inspiring to say the least.
Thanks for baring your soul,
Dawn
Wow. That was the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. Thank you so much, Dawn.
Really. Thanks.
Jade
And yes, read every one of them!
Dawn
Had never seen the video of the father and handicapped son. Beautiful.
I've always thought it was really inspiring to see how passionate you are about your faith, Jade. Even though we may not share all the same opinions or beliefs, I think you are an amazing person, and I'm glad you can immerse yourself in something so important to you without looking back. =)
p.s.
I didn't cry during The Notebook either! When people hear that, they're like "O__O Were you born without a soul??" Haha.
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